It’s January of 2022 and you know what I feel? Things are looking good!
Yesterday, I finally got to my Coaching for World Travelers. It’s been a while since I looked at my blog to update the plugins. A lot has happened during these several months and I don’t really want to talk about this.
Things Are Looking Good Now Because I decided So
I looked at my admin side and the warnings of outdated features flashed in my eyes. I rushed to click the buttons in a usual way and while trying to relax waiting for the spinning circles to identify success, I was flabbergasted by what I saw on the screen… Oh, no!!! Not that!!!!
The rows of signs yelled at me about the fatal error on my website.
Well, immediately I fell into that default mode – “Holy crap! What else can go wrong today? Everything was going so smoothly until just right now.” Well, I took it for granted my earlier that day graceful handling of receiving a higher than usual electricity bill and the notice about almost a 1000-dollar bill for the gas. I cried with my sister learning about the events in Kazakhstan and was sickened over the events in Ukraine. I handled the news calmly and peacefully, even though I experienced tightening in my throat and pain in the stomach. But a crashed website was the punch in my chest.
I Need to Pause
Switching the topic doesn’t solve the problem, but it helps to change the mood. I’ll think about this later, better tomorrow. What would I rather pay attention to? How do I want to feel? Moving in the direction to the satisfaction or at least content – this is what I need right now. I’d rather be there than in misery and frustration.
Pause and refocus prevented me from falling into a state of suffocating anxiety. I still experienced it, but I handled it well with a cup of tea/gin in my hands and watching another episode of “Blue bloods”. Why not? I love the actors.
Ask for Help
The Morning of the next day was promising. The home is quiet and serene. The thick fog outside filled the valley. So beautiful. I started to think about that website. Oh, mine!!! It didn’t look good yesterday. It’s a new day and I’ll ask for help. Will I? Yes, I will. Liuda and Denis on the other side of the ocean responded right away. “Wait, he is working”. “Well, crap again”. I cannot take advantage of people, I barely know. Besides, it’s not really their problem and for them, it’s midnight – time to cuddle with each other and go to bed. An hour later – the answer was – “Talk to the host”. “Ok, I will” I sighed and got to digging into my hosting site roaming through the thicket of the technical terms. I figured that out because I asked for help. They didn’t solve the problem for me, but they were there for me to make sure that things are looking good. I solved the problem and fixed the site because I dared to ask for help.
Next time if you think you are flabbergasted, look for things that look good, pause, and ask for help.
Talk to you later.